Diary Of A Army Wife

Sunday Scribblings:


"Remember, you are not here to play it safe. You are here to start fires." - Sera Beak. So what do you make of: fire?


There is something burning in my heart
Spreading like a forest fire
It engulfs my body and my mind
Taking over me it burns me alive
This fire is burning ever so hot
All the time

If I ever try to put the fire out
I know I could not
For my heart is in too deep to be wrought
From its fiery pit which it burns aloft
This fire burns me now
All the time

The fire does not hurt as it burns my flesh
In fact I enjoy it as I burn
For this fire is not fire
But this fire is love
And with love I burn
For the one I love

I love my Soldier. My husband. My everything. Fire is LOVE to me.

Thinking of the Week That Just Ended


Who made you feel good this week?
My grandmom really made me feel good this week. I was talking to her the other day and she reminded me how good of a mother I was. She makes me smile and laugh with the stories she tells me sometimes and visa versa. She really is the best. She is a great mother..

What was the biggest mistake you made this week?
Biggest one was basically flipping out on my husband when I was on over board from stress at home. He has been barely home cause of work and duty and I have been doing the house keeping myself, as well as taking after the dogs and the kiddos. I just was losing it, but once I talked to him and calmed down it was worth talking over. No arguing, no fighting, no name calling. Was so worth it.. I love you.

What did you do this week that moved you closer to reaching your goals?
Not so much as moved me towards my goals... But I was practicing country line dancing and it was so stress relieving. I had a fun time doing it and love the music so it was a all around a good time.

Is there anything you did this week that you wish you’d done differently?
I wish that I went to bed at a decent hour because it kills me to get up lately. I usually can go to sleep but lately I can't.. I have so much on my mind. Normal bedtime is really truly needed.

What did you most enjoy doing this week?
I must say I most enjoyed seeing it snow outside. I got to see the kids smiling ear to ear with seeing it and playing it in. I got to see the dogs acting like snow bunnies in that beautiful white stuff. It was so beautiful... but it melted to fast. Lol.

How did you procrastinate on important tasks this week?
I was really flipping about getting the laundry done and my room cleaned. I succeeded and everything but every time it gets all done there is so much more to do after that. So it's like, it truly never ends.

What did you learn this week?
Learned that you need to tell people the truth, cause they need to know what your thinking. Especially when it comes down to a relationship issue. You need to let them know because in the end when your about to walk away - they will understand why. OR it can be discussed and fixed as your speaking about it.

What’s the funniest thing that happened to you this week?
I must say when the dogs ran past me a little bit ago and I broke a plate on my foot. They bumped me and I lost grip on the plate and it went shattering on the floor but it hit my foot first OUCH. I screamed so loud but it was pretty freaking funny.

Memories From Your Childhood


What was your favorite toy?
As far back as I can remember. I really loved my Polly Pockets. Those dolls were so cool, they came with such different things. I remember I got a set from my grandmother that was like tee-pee's and they were so cool. It had gates and little things of food, tables, beds, I had a house too. I had quite a few things for my Polly's. It's pretty amazing how much they have changed since then. But their still super cute :).

Did you ever get lost?
I really don't think I ever got lost anywhere. Not in the neighborhood anyway, I do remember getting lost in the mall though. I was walking with my grandmother and she told me to stay by, I as a kid wanting to touch everything wandered towards the toys and such and I couldn't find her. She wasn't in the same place as she was so I asked for help and they paged my grandmom. Kind of scary when your a kid and your lost and you have no clue where your parent is.

Who was your best friend in elementary school?
I had a few best friends in elementary school. I guess the best one was Kayla my step sister in law cause we lived close to one another. Literally right up the street and would walk to school together and walk home together. She was always so quiet but that was ok for me beings I was loud as hell. So she is pretty awesome, still is. We are still close.

Did you ever run away from home?
I never completely went missing from home no. The most I would run is like 10 blocks to my grandmothers house. So if mom got on my nerves or wasn't home and didn't watch me, or I was upset I would run to grandmom and grandpop's. It was the place to go where there was tons of comfort. Now granted I had to go back home a lot but I still knew I could have mom-mom to talk to.

As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?
I remember wanting to be Veterinarian cause I loved animals. I remember walking around the crappy neighborhood I grew up in and see dogs walking around with no leash and thirsty or hungry or hurt and tons of cats who were the same. It always crossed my mind to help them. I actually remember my mom and me leaving food and water outside for the neighborhood cats that would come around cause we felt bad.

What was your favorite subject in school?
English - It has and always will be my favorite. I love it, specially when it comes down to Poetry or reading. I really love to read and poetry is how I express myself. It's all about grammar and how you use it. I really miss being in English class :(

Who was your favorite teacher?
Favorite teacher would have been NONE. Cause I had literally issues with everyone. They were either non-stop fighting with my parents, or fighting with me. They were by far horrible, the public school anymore in Philadelphia are ridiculous. I am glad I got away from them all.

What’s your first memory?
Kindergarten ... I remember kicking the shit out of my mom and teacher cause I didn't want to go to class. I guess I had like separation anxiety, I hated being away from her. I don't know... I failed cause I was barely there. I had to re-do the grade, but that is also a longer story...

What was your favorite cartoon?
That I can remember watching all the time. I use to watch dumb stuff with my brother like Poke'mon and stuff but that wasn't my favorite. Little LuLu was my favorite, I use to sit and watch it with my grandmom on the weekends, it was totally awesome of a show. She was so cool of a character :).

What book did you read over and over again as a child?
Over and over again would have been those stupid Jenny B Jones books. I was like obsessed with them damn things. I would go to the library all the time just to get them. And if the school library didn't have them I would get my grandmom to buy me some or I would go to the free library. LOL.

What is your most vivid memory of the kitchen in your childhood?
Hmmmmm.... I remember never being allowed to cook so that really breaks it down. I never had a memory in the kitchen in either house I was ever at. I always watched or talked to grandmom or mom, never helped. Sigh....

As a child, who was your favorite relative?
Really ... seriously .... hands down my grandmom and grandpop. But grandmom beats grandpop cause I would go clothes shopping with her, food shopping, play 500 rummy with her, go swimming with her, I mean everything. She is still awesome... I love her so much.

Three Things

Three things you can’t go without.
1. My Iphone4
2. My laptop
3. My Kids


Three celebrity crushes.
1. Channing Tatum
2. Johnny Depp
3. Michael C. Hall

Three favorite book characters.
1. Edward Cullen
2. Alice Cullen
3. Jacob Black


Three favorite things to wear.
1. Leggings
2. Ugg Boots
3. Long Sweaters


Three things you want in a relationship.
1. Trust
2. Faithfulness
3. Romance

If you had to evacuate your home because of a natural disaster, what three things would you take with you?
1. My kids
2. My kitchen of food
3. A lifetime of matches


Three pet peeves.
1. Liars
2. Cheaters
3. Not showering


Three things you’d do if you weren’t so afraid.
1. Tell those how I really feel.
2. Go get my GED.
3. Photography Classes.

Three favorite TV shows.
1. Army Wives
2. Dexter
3. Sons Of Anarchy